Its been a while since i last updated my blog but its just because i have had no time to sit down and elaborate on any feelings or experiences and i dont want my blog to just be all anecdotes with "i did this, and i did that, then i saw this, and had that, etc etc".
I emailed a friend today that I haven't seen for years and years. Emailing her brought back so many memories of days gone past. Memories of how stupid I was, memories of simple times.... times before I had the burden of experience and hindsight.
I think experience can be a burden. It can inhibit us and can stifle our personalities for fear of the same mistakes recreating themselves. We are so so keen to learn lessons and learn from mistakes that when we fall off our bike we don't dust ourselves down and get back on.... we dust ourselves down and decide that the lesson was "not to ride the bike". Is this right? Or is this wrong?
I forgot how similar we were. We were close for a reason. We didn't know each other for long but we were close for the time that we did know each other and now I can remember why. Our mind works in the same way as mine having similar fears and similar worries. Is this more important then having similar interests and similar love of things?
isn't it sad to think that there is always a price to pay for happiness.....?
Today I have had a big big big smile on my face all day. I don't know why! At one point I was neutral, not happy, not sad. And suddenly I could feel myself instantly becoming happy. Something I could feel running through my blood (endorphines??). How weird. Some say I smile a lot... Apparently I have a big big smile.
isn't smiling the most amazing feeling in the world?
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