Something Cooking :P

Recently we had silent moments together .... it was just me n him together all alone
and it was getting all difficult for me to resist the temptation .At first glance itself he took my breath away .Honestly ... awesome, decadent, indulgent, amazing!!!!
Oh my god hold your imagination and stop cooking stories .It was me with my cake in the mess .I was really elated for it turned out so well ,ehh am a gud cook .I was baking this cake in the mess for my friend's birthday and it was then i started wondering about food , what better can u think of in mess :P


Food ummm is

...an everyday routine.

...the necessity of life.

...a good riddance (nice escape to say goodbye- hey gotto go for lunch/dinner )

...the only thing I look forward to on certain days.

...an annoying interruption in the middle of a busy day.

...comes as a respite in the middle of a busy day.

...an ice-breaker.

...full of variety .

...an avenue to be yourself.

...a great avenue for bonding and knowing .

...makes you wonder.

...adds to you identity.(oh this dish is ms x's fav , oh she cooks this dish wonderfully)

...a source to fetch u praises. (provided u r a good cook )

...a tool to avoid awkward silences..

...a nuisance when you have no one to have it with.

...at times expensive and totally not worth it.

...a factor that contributes greatly to the "It's lonely at the top" concept.

...a great way to get creative .

...a great source of delight, especially when u succeed in cooking .

...adds flavor to life .

...yuck.

...yummy.

...yummiest when ma makes it.

PS : Soon will u get to see d cake.....

An inconvenient truth

once-in-a-lifetime opportunity knocked at my door .....

a dream so vivid , infact a prophetic dream .....

skewed perception

staisfaction

contentment leading me away from perfection ......

perfect time does not exist .....

involuntary submission of my mind to satisfying pleasures of job i had deceiving me from the universal truth that -" it's Google, the Angelina Jolie of tech employers"


I wrote the aptitude test in a very disinterested manner and was busy yesterday night watching movies :D , slept at 3:30 am n got a call at 8 saying u have interview within 15 minutes so rush .......

Had the interview and after the interview I felt horrible. I knew I wasn't going to get an offer. Churning in my mind was what went wrong?. Somewhere deep down i knew and the feeling of dejection was sinking in . I suspect that the guy had a negative inclination about me the moment the interview started. It's just pure speculation. I have no way of knowing........

Donno why but all of a sudden i recalled Shawshank Redemption - Hope is a good thing, may be the best of the things. And no good thing ever dies ...when i was called upon for the second round of interview ....

About the interviews i realized that they do not care about who you are and what you are good at. They care about who they are and how good you are in what they do. They probably do not even try hard to figure out how easily/rapidly you could evolve to the particular skillset they are looking for. At least, this is what I have learnt from interviewing with them.
I have heard how wonderful it is to work at Google, but also how hard it is to get in.Maybe I truly don't have the brain power Google is looking for. Maybe I truly am NOT a good fit for what Google is looking for.
An Inconvenient truth but then we all take chances...and if every chance we took guaranteed success....well, that would just spoil the fun of taking a chance.

Wanna Commit ?

First of all disclaimers : This post is written just for fun and is not there to hurt anyone's sensitivites. Neither does it says anything about my current status - Commited/ Single and ready to mingle/ single but not interested. So please do not make any assumptions n deductions. Just total tp.... considering its just 12:30 am and its a bit too early to sleep ...... so just writing all crap which is going around in my mind.

A weird kinda ambience is all around ....people saying kash meri bhi gf hoti , tips dede to get a gf ....ya bf hota toh kaisa hota .... Most of the friends have been talking of similar stuff- 'the kind of partner they want'.... Donno all of a sudden why everybody is luking for a partner... i was a bit confused about this new trend..... thought it was a long time since 'i love u' virus striked....... but after some brain( yeah i bet tht i hv one) storming i realised that its psenti sem n so people looking for a psenti :P
First let me start with my hostel- a home away from home. Coming to the point, there are 24 people on my floor, consisting both psenti-semites n nonpsentisemiites. n around 10-12 of them have that 'special' friend, or at least pretend to have one...:). so i decided to ponder upon d lifestyle of these 'experienced' people n analyse the pros n cons of having a girlfriend/boyfriend. This wud give me an idea whether i need a boyfriend now or should i wait for sum more time

coming to the pros of being committed-

- u get someone with whom u can talk. yeah if he is not from Bits Pilani this is probably the only way u can remain in touch with him. This place provides u with such varied kind of experiences tht u always would like to share. There are moments when u need someone someone to talk to..... sometimes when u screw up the tests or tuts or quizzes( that does happen a lot), lots of night outs when u wud love to call him in morning at 6am before catching up the 2 hr sleep before the class, talking about the crap which some of the profs throw at us , may be treats or lacha sessions we have, n those different kinda experiences which any girl would have experienced in a Girl's hostel ... n its not only about sharing ur experiences..... u also come to know whats going on in the world outside the campus.... n if he is from Jaipur, i cud get all the news regarding the events going on in 'aapno' Jaipur. i do have my set of close friends with whom i share most of my stuff, but sometimes i have to think twice before calling them up- reasons being they being busy during the day at there college , its my psenti sem not theirs( though 3 years stint at college have taught me that some of them can only be busy during the canteen session.) .... at those moments u like to have a friend whom u can ping n disturb at any moment n who would be ready to listen to all crap n arbit chattel u r going to throw at him.

- one of my friend's boyfriend sends lots of chocolates and cakes every 15 days-now this is a real big advantage as well as incentive of having a boyfriend. Imagine someone sending u a lot of gud stuff to eat after every few days..... u get a chance to forget the crap u r forced to eat in the mess.... this is a real big big advantage i m looking forward to :P

- the personality changes n esp when it comes to guys they become a bit more responsible person, at least try to become one .Real lazy n laid-back kind of guys.... those who don't like to take bath before 2 days n don't shave regularly.... start feeling obliged when someone cares for them...so when she asks whether they had dinner properly, it wud be difficult to lie n say that the food was gud. difficult not to execute the 'room-cleaning operation' which have been pending for a couple of months usually.... a person starts to become mature in the way he talks, he dresses, he carries himself n all other similar stuff.

One of my floormate's boyfriend acts as a morning alarm for her.... yeah he religiously calls her up every morning half an hour before the class waking her up n motivating her to go to class.... another incentive for me as i have started to miss classes more regularly.... not a bad way to be woken up..... better to have someone's mellifluous voice acting as a morning alarm than to hear that cacophonous alarm of that alarm clock which i want to crush everyday while getting up.

Den yeah your acads rock once u get committed , u r not far from making a 10 :D

coming to the cons, i can see a long list of them too

- first of all the inflated phone bills... most of these guys get a phone bill of around 4K per month... a huge amount.... i may be offered 'premium membership' by airtel guys, but who'll pay the bills ..... and if at all my dad gets to know all this he wud say "beta pack ur bags and come back home , marriage would be a cheaper alternative :P"

- then all those rona-dhona n getting senti- now i m a fun loving n chillax kinda gal who gets well with everybody.... a bit emotional sometimes but certainly not that kinda person who can 'bear' with all those 'mushy-mushy' tantrums all the time....being very frank about it.. n wud be really difficult for me to say -'u r really intelligent' when he takes a stupid decision or for that matter praise his latest crazy t-shirt ....

- time , there is one thing that is really at premium at BITS n that is time.... whenever u get some free time, it is probably better to have a nap than talking endlessly with someone on the other end. if i m going talk to him for an hour everyday, he may say 'BITS ki seat kyun kharab kar rahi ho, useless gurl just spending time on phone' n if i did not talk for that one hour specified limit then he wud say ' what careless gurl i have choosen... moron cant find sometime for me ...alas.... bhaav kha rahi hai'

Variable costs go up - gifting stuff, chocolates, dresses- a big headache for guys ngals i guess. N then wishing on a number of days is really painful. Last semester one of my wingies had a fight with her boyfriend over phone. the reason came out was that the guy had forgotten her to wish 'Happy Rose Day'.... now i really felt pity for that guy... he had 2 painful assignments to submit the next day... he did not remember whether he had his dinner, so how was he expected to remember the Rose Day.... n then more n more new concepts r flooding the market apart from the traditional ones - Valentine's Day, Friendship day... the days r not really far off when we wud be having 'Father -In-Law Day' n 'Pet-in-law' days.... donno what will happen then.

i m really confused now... kahtein hain - 'this is kinda ladoo.... jo naa khaaye woh lalchayee n jo kha le woh pachtayee' :p. but its really fun for us when we observe n tease those guys regarding their relationships :)

Perfect timepass !!

me :Hey m bored ....do something
He :okies sawal hamare jawaab aapke khelte hein
me : kya ?
He : arre seedhi sadhi bhasha mein bole toh tag :D
me :hmm k shoot n no boring questions plz :P
He : arre sab kuch tumhare answers pe hai yahan ;)
me :waah ! k chalo

1. What is your current desktop picture ?

Ab desktop pictures mein aap kya dekhenge - sunsets , palaces , gardens , monuments , waterfalls etc etc . Waise right now I see my dad smiling at me on the desktop . Hi Papa .

2. Do you believe in gay marriage ?

Huh ? Oye gay marriage hain , koi UFO thode hi hain jo pooch rahe ho "Do you believe ?". I believe a marriage is a union of two minds , who then commit to tread the path of life together , facing all adversity and celebrating all joys together , and helping each other grow in the process . Gay or otherwise , the essence of a marriage is unaffected by such trivial issues . Subhan allah , ekdum miss world waala answer diya na :P

3. What do you want more than anything right now ?

Watch Gone with the wind....Novel bahut badi hai n aajkal badhti hui umra k saath patience n nazrein kam hoti ja rahin hain :P

4 . What time were you born ?

On a mildly cool night that fateful day in February, I was delivered into this world , with no indication of the fact that I was to grow up to become the wonderful and charming young woman I am today . Within seconds of my being born , a pretty nurse with big eyes wrapped me into a soft white blanket . As she was turning back to get something else , I suddenly gripped her finger with my tiny palm , pulled her towards me and squeaked in my newly discovered voice - "Aunty , time kya hua hain ?."

You actually think all this happened ? Nahin na . So how am I expected to know what time it was when I was born ?

5. Are your parents still together ?

Oye ! Mr America , humare India mein parents remain together . They are very much together and have no dangerous plans . Shaadi mein fevicol khaayi thi ma papa ne , mazboot jod hain , tootega nahi.

6. Last person who made you cry ?

Me . I believe no one else can make me cry . Tears arise out of what I do with the thoughts in my head . ( Kaafi profound hain yeh jawaab , samajh na aaye toh koi nahin )

7. What is your favorite perfume/deo ?

Yaar main koi Page 3-socialite-fashion designer types hoon jo itna perfume conscious hongi ? Apna chal jata hai eva se .Vaise evening in paris sounds nice bolne mein ...

8. What kind of hair/eye color do you like in the opposite sex ?

Am a very adjusting and easy going person toh chalega kuch bhi , its jus it wud be totally uncool to have someone without one :P

9. What are you listening to ?

the wing's gossip with the background music -dil chahta hai


10. Do you like pain killers ?

Like ? What's there to like or dislike in a pain killer ? If there is pain , I take the pill . You don't expect me to 'like' pain killers and yell "Maaaa ! Aaaj lunch mein aloo ke paranthe aur pain killers bana do ! Bahut din ho gaye accha khaana khaye hue !."

11. Are you too shy to ask someone out ?

Nahin Nahin n esp jab m bored n want a company . Aata kya Gone with the wind dekhne ? Ab bolna toh "aata kya khandaala' chahti thi , but abhi khandaala jaane ka mood nahin hai yaar.

12 . If you could eat anything right now , what would it be ?

The guy who's asking so many questions in this tag . With some tomato ketchup.

13. Who was the last person you made mad ?

Ma. I do that with alarming frequency.

14. Is anyone in love with you ?

Gentleman , this question is for you. Aaju baaju mat dekh , baat dil ki bol daal.

May be i'm jus confused !!

I’m too bored. It’s not that I don’t have anything to do. It’s just that I seem to have no interest in doing anything. These days, I can’t do one thing for any period of time longer than 15 minutes.I start flipping through the pages of the newspaper and then throw it away ,so that I can google something , give up again . I turn on a movie and then pause it, so that I can read somebody’s blog for sometime. Then, I stop doing that so that I can chat with a friend. Then i fumble through some pages of Shantaram (currently reading ) and , I suddenly feel like blogging myself. I keep arguing with myself on whether or not it makes sense to post something for the whole world to see and whether or not it is any good, until I give up and unpause the movie only to restart the whole cycle after a while.I guess i need to consult Dr Greg house ;) .I alternately feel lonely and crowded (can you suggest another word?). Sometimes I wonder if I’m supposed to be somewhere else, like in a different universe. Sometimes I wonder what race it is, that I’m running. Why I’m in it. What I’m running away from and running towards. Maybe, this is what they call existential angst. Maybe, I just need to call up someone . Will go do that now. Blogging really helps :D