when goin gets tough ....

Today I was feeling a bit gloomy since evening . ..No particular reason,(screwed my sapm test ..naah tat wasnt probably the ryt one behind )..probably just one of those days where you just don't feel good about yourself...Anyways, life doesn't really give u a choice so I went around my busy day doing things putting my mood on a backburner.Went to c'not , had a cup of coffee,ate maggie ,discussed a few issues , did some room cleanin ....A friend called, I asked him to call later, in no mood to talk apparently....went to dinner and then decided to watch the movie "Fashion" with my friend ...this movie I heard was a one time watch but still everybody has been watching it around recently so thought of givin it a shot ...Now my friend called back and was in a mood for a philosophical discussion we talked about the movie and now finally here I am blogging with the background muzik " marjaawan ...the fashp track" from the movie .

Well , cumin to the summarized discussion we had when both of us are on the verge of entering the new world, the proffesional world pretty soon , for me its gonna be january when my practice school statrts ....Well the movie in one line says ,"character is something you build through-out life and strength is something you acquire from within while building character". This realization has become more and more relevant and obvious to me as i recall certain things in my life n that of others . Its the tough decisions one needs to make in life that take a lot of personal strength and conviction. A situation would not be tough I guess if it did not demand an extraordinary amount of thinking, decision making and then sticking with it against all odds and literally the whole world! But doing just that is what makes you a stronger person... ryt
In professional life this would be almost a routine scenario - something important comes up and viola most people start worrying. Perhaps,The reason why worry kills more people than work is that more people worry than work....With the work of course comes your strategic reasoning, ability to rationalize, personal vested interest and a whole lot of politics .....But this is also where the hammer meets the hot iron if you will. You feel cornered to take the path of least resistance, or the past of highest long-term or short-term personal benefit forgetting about almost everything and everyone else like the movie ! The mark of a true leader (at least one I would look up to) is who
comes up with the answer to what is the right thing to do in his interests not forgetting others around !!! Executives who come up with popular decisions are a dime a dozen, who cares about them! Yes they will make a lot of money but they will also lose friends, loyalists, respect and their own selves as they continue to grow in the very rampant corporate model.

A really passionate proffesional should be able to make tough decisions without screwing someone. The first time you make a decision that works for everyone but screws up one person in your team; you are doomed you are going down the wrong path and every decision after that you will find it easier to screw others in making the most for yourself. So keep it human! y not be rational, reasonable, sensitive and less selfish if not selfless! and if u continue in the lead u definitely would be confronted with the ....."Boy I should have resisted my urge!"

Another thing which movie hints to is that "Often expectation fails, and most often where most it promises; and often it hits where hope is coldest; and despair most sits."Generally speaking we are all told not to expect. Not having expectations or lowering them certainly makes it easier to be content and happy but is that
really practical? Not expecting anything in return for acts like passing on your notes or accompanyin your friend when hez alone is plausible. However, not having any expectations from people that I love or cherish is something totally impossible for me . Though there are a very few on that list as is the case with everyone .Of course we all have heard that true love is unconditional. On a high level, our parents do love us throughout life unconditionally (luv ya ma papa)but even the best parents do have expectations. I think it comes naturally to our race to expect. The measure of expectations might vary from little to great .Hmm , now I have to go figure out yet the answer to my question: To expect or not to expect? .......
"soche dil ke aisa kash ho
jaise khwaab hai aankhon mein base meri
waise neendo pe silvate pade meri......."
with this note time to come back from never neverland of thoughts .....

About the movie , yeah u can watch it once if u have 2 -3 hours to while away ...