Adios !

Now time for the LAST entry from Meera Bhawan Bits Pilani ....Dont wanna write a sappy reflective entry thats gonna come later !

Flickerin images

Like ne other psentisemite I went for a photo clicking spree around the campus which used to appear so funny to me a few days back but time flies and here I am contemplating .Nostalgia may be painful. Nevertheless, it is quite agonising when you realise that many of your memories are slowly, silently fading out. When you try to recollect various time-periods of your life, your are confronted with some faces floating around and some scenes blinking in and out of sight. You focus your attention on some of these scenes only to realise that they depict some random incidents that have occurred on some arbitrary occasions and are quite inconsequential. You have no justification as to why your memory chose to register these sequences so strongly while overlooking the actual major events. You might consciously force your memory to gather those moments that you feel are important and should be treasured. It will cough out a few flickering images and you have to carry out extensive extrapolation to make them coherent. But you begin to wonder how much of it is a genuine part of the memory and how much of it has been cobbled up just now using your imagination on how it should or could have been.
And then, you sigh and give up .... after all, soon you wont even remember that you were trying to hold onto those fading memories.....

long long ago ..time went by and is still running !

Waking up with a farewll dream today,
I asked the sage a question.
Isn’t it sad,
that after all the years we had,
Not many friendships and memories with
the departed we are able to preserve?

Deep in thought with brow furrowed,
a question in return asked he
How many among our own, have we?
Dodged it with some light talk,
joked some more about little things,
but the thought weighs heavily on my musings.

I do have a a lot of friends,
and an even greater number of acquaintances.
but out of all these people now and here,
how many of them hold me dear?

Helplessly track wisps of memories floating away into oblivion. Try to pull them back, only to find them burst into nothingness like shiny soap bubbles of a mirage.

$ Seen the face almost every other day for three years. Exchanged the hi's, the views, the enthusiastic discussions, food and assignments. Never said a good-bye, but never talked again. See the name in the gtalk-list everyday, but can't be bothered to message. Wonder whether you really knew the face and the name.

$ Ought to message a regular, but the fluctuating list manipulates you into sending the message to someone you rarely conversed with over the past two years. And its awkward, after the standard hi's and the protocol based "how are you? am fyn!" exchange, both fall silent. There is nothing to say to each other. The lives are completely different and completely out of touch with the other. The fact that these same lives were closely intertwined just a couple of years ago, holds no significance.


$ There are those whom u rarely meet and funny but true you end up having with them the longest of conversations over gtalk or phone.

While i am typing this, i am, in parallel, involved in two different but equally demanding chat conversations, one of which is an attempt at convincing a friend that he should infact go ahead and ask that girl (that he has been infatuated with, for many months , he was the one who was engaged in the chats i just mentioned and ya was equally in love with her blog which i found funny till yesterday when i was completely vetty for a change (was on a break from watchin movies n series)and was checking so many arbit blogs,reading comments ,checking replies to my comment and getting to his blog .(I usually don't care to read all the comments usually ,ya i am lazy and follow a very few blogs.)I was instantaneously hooked.The worst part is that I knew him in person ...So I spent a part of last night and all the time since I woke up today, reading a guy’s blog,who then I had thought of as just another guy i knew and ,never thought he would be into blogging .He's actually cool ,billion times cooler than i thought him to be.A few posts but nice posts... loved thy blog ....In the background i hear some1 sayin "I am so dumb " ,Oh yeah so correct,so dumb of me ,i missed so many opportunities i had to talk ;). I guess it’s all karma. Everything that goes around, comes around *sigh* (Wipe that smirk off your face ,nothin cooking). .Obviously, I’m not going to post his link here. Don’t even ask.

BTW... . sorry for the interruption, we now return.

$ Then, there are those kind of persons you meet daily, exchange jokes, talk the general topics and forget about as soon as you walk past them and sometimes wonder how little you all know about each other. Thus, making it certain that once you leave the place, none of them will ever feature in your memories and neither will you in theirs'. Yet another addition to the acquaintance links that will quickly wither away.


$ And finally, there are those that frequently appear in your mind. you recollect all the good times you had, perhaps the not so pleasant ones too. But you are amazed at how they don't exactly seem to remember most of it, making all those memories little imaginary moments of your own mind. you might still meet them regularly, but how can that matter?

tap tap, shake, wake up ,Okies reader,we are coming to the ending now, time to return back from your wandering thoughts if u went for that ,or from ur dreamz if u dozed off :P to post your customary comment ;)

Helluva ride !

We’ve been together for ages now. I can’t even remember the first time we met. They’ve been very nice to me as I try to be to them. I’ve been late for our meetings once in a while and of late, I’ve been leaving before our time is up, but I hope they understand.
Of course, we’ve had our share of tiffs and misunderstandings but we always make up (sometimes their close relatives, ‘the results’ help, and sometimes they don’t). After all, I can’t do without them, can I? (still guessing 'we '-its me n exams :P)
They’ve been extra-nice to me since the past three and a half years. I guess they wanted to make up for that one big misunderstanding we had) Obviously, it’s all forgiven and forgotten now), or maybe it’s because of the greater numbers of ‘Best of Lucks’ that I get.
I just realized that yesterday’s date will determine if we continue to see each other, in the near future. I, for one, would like to do so. Hope they do too.

Wow !!!!

This was d pic mailed to me by a friend of mine who happened to visit a beach today and has passion for photography .This awesome pic left me breathless and i was just left with wooooooooooooow .
It took me to the beach – gazing out into the horizon while admiring the beauty of the swirling clouds. Staring out into the sea strengthens my hope because it is endless and it will reinstate the faith I placed within my being and the goals that I have in mind.At the end of day it just gives more hope and faith :)

sometimes picture says it d best

echoing r d words - everyone makes mistake and i'm sure i made my share of them .But I wont spend a moment of the future regretting what might have been "

when goin gets tough ....

Today I was feeling a bit gloomy since evening . ..No particular reason,(screwed my sapm test ..naah tat wasnt probably the ryt one behind )..probably just one of those days where you just don't feel good about yourself...Anyways, life doesn't really give u a choice so I went around my busy day doing things putting my mood on a backburner.Went to c'not , had a cup of coffee,ate maggie ,discussed a few issues , did some room cleanin ....A friend called, I asked him to call later, in no mood to talk apparently....went to dinner and then decided to watch the movie "Fashion" with my friend ...this movie I heard was a one time watch but still everybody has been watching it around recently so thought of givin it a shot ...Now my friend called back and was in a mood for a philosophical discussion we talked about the movie and now finally here I am blogging with the background muzik " marjaawan ...the fashp track" from the movie .

Well , cumin to the summarized discussion we had when both of us are on the verge of entering the new world, the proffesional world pretty soon , for me its gonna be january when my practice school statrts ....Well the movie in one line says ,"character is something you build through-out life and strength is something you acquire from within while building character". This realization has become more and more relevant and obvious to me as i recall certain things in my life n that of others . Its the tough decisions one needs to make in life that take a lot of personal strength and conviction. A situation would not be tough I guess if it did not demand an extraordinary amount of thinking, decision making and then sticking with it against all odds and literally the whole world! But doing just that is what makes you a stronger person... ryt
In professional life this would be almost a routine scenario - something important comes up and viola most people start worrying. Perhaps,The reason why worry kills more people than work is that more people worry than work....With the work of course comes your strategic reasoning, ability to rationalize, personal vested interest and a whole lot of politics .....But this is also where the hammer meets the hot iron if you will. You feel cornered to take the path of least resistance, or the past of highest long-term or short-term personal benefit forgetting about almost everything and everyone else like the movie ! The mark of a true leader (at least one I would look up to) is who
comes up with the answer to what is the right thing to do in his interests not forgetting others around !!! Executives who come up with popular decisions are a dime a dozen, who cares about them! Yes they will make a lot of money but they will also lose friends, loyalists, respect and their own selves as they continue to grow in the very rampant corporate model.

A really passionate proffesional should be able to make tough decisions without screwing someone. The first time you make a decision that works for everyone but screws up one person in your team; you are doomed you are going down the wrong path and every decision after that you will find it easier to screw others in making the most for yourself. So keep it human! y not be rational, reasonable, sensitive and less selfish if not selfless! and if u continue in the lead u definitely would be confronted with the ....."Boy I should have resisted my urge!"

Another thing which movie hints to is that "Often expectation fails, and most often where most it promises; and often it hits where hope is coldest; and despair most sits."Generally speaking we are all told not to expect. Not having expectations or lowering them certainly makes it easier to be content and happy but is that
really practical? Not expecting anything in return for acts like passing on your notes or accompanyin your friend when hez alone is plausible. However, not having any expectations from people that I love or cherish is something totally impossible for me . Though there are a very few on that list as is the case with everyone .Of course we all have heard that true love is unconditional. On a high level, our parents do love us throughout life unconditionally (luv ya ma papa)but even the best parents do have expectations. I think it comes naturally to our race to expect. The measure of expectations might vary from little to great .Hmm , now I have to go figure out yet the answer to my question: To expect or not to expect? .......
"soche dil ke aisa kash ho
jaise khwaab hai aankhon mein base meri
waise neendo pe silvate pade meri......."
with this note time to come back from never neverland of thoughts .....

About the movie , yeah u can watch it once if u have 2 -3 hours to while away ...

Memories Remain ....

audiiii ...apogee ...a7 ...anc ...av ...assignments ...

bosm ...bitsmail ...bitching ... bday bash

c'not ...cycle-rush ...choms ...crushes ...confessions ...clubs n department ...csa ...cdc's ...clock tower ...compre's ...ceeri

dc ...

electives ...ec ...epc ...extra classes ...enthu

fundoo ...f2005186 ...fd's ...founder's day ...farewell's

gen ...ghotting ...gossipin ...grubs ...gults ...garovista ...god-level ...gtalk

.....

ic ...ipmsgr ...ipc ...insti ...informalz ...idpop ...idson ...illads ...ipc vale bhaiya :P

jaipur to pilani

krap ....

lite .... laccha sessions ...library ghotting ...ltc

mt .... multicasts ...mess ...masala papad ...mnb ...meera bhawan ...music nites .... maggie mallu..

nite-outs ...notes ...newsletters ...nescafe ...net

ob ...oasis ...onlines

pahadi ...pr ...ps ...profs ...prithvi ...pogo ...placements ...psentisem ...plcc

qt...

reddi ...raf ...rickshaw

shivg ...shit man ...sac ...sky ...sitcoms ...sam chaat ....sleepin in lectures ...snap sessions

timetable ...tadi ...telnet ...temple ...tuts n tests ...treats ...tp

ulti ...

vetty ...

wingies ...walks to remember ...workshop

xerox...

zuk ...



a flash of words which rushed through my mind when i flipped through my bitsian dictionary .....

Why do we ...

Why do we constantly keep telling ourselves not to be judgmental. Would it be easier to just convince ourselves that we are indeed judgmental hypocrites and that there's nothing we can do about it?

Why do we ignore the people who don't care about us, because we know there are people who care .....

Why do we waste our time on those who don't waste theirs on us .....

Why are we always right and everyone else is always wrong. But once in a while, we wake up in the middle of the night and go, "Oh crap. What if this time I am wrong?"(like i did yesterday , having a sleepless night )

Why do force ourselves to bitch to fit in... what if we have nothing to bitch about?

Why do we freak out if something is too good to be true. But what if it is indeed true....

Why are we often stopped by a sudden instinct just when we're about to say something. If we still say it, we're screwed. If we don't say it, we are still screwed.

Why do we all reach a point in our life where we go "What the heck?". But not many of us do something about it.

Why do we say we're fine in our comfort zone. But if the comfort zone is so comfortable, why are we so restless?

Why are we always in search for something better , what if we already have the best ...
Why don't we quit when we should.


We think too much about the things listed above. But sometimes we don't think enough

Something Cooking :P

Recently we had silent moments together .... it was just me n him together all alone
and it was getting all difficult for me to resist the temptation .At first glance itself he took my breath away .Honestly ... awesome, decadent, indulgent, amazing!!!!
Oh my god hold your imagination and stop cooking stories .It was me with my cake in the mess .I was really elated for it turned out so well ,ehh am a gud cook .I was baking this cake in the mess for my friend's birthday and it was then i started wondering about food , what better can u think of in mess :P


Food ummm is

...an everyday routine.

...the necessity of life.

...a good riddance (nice escape to say goodbye- hey gotto go for lunch/dinner )

...the only thing I look forward to on certain days.

...an annoying interruption in the middle of a busy day.

...comes as a respite in the middle of a busy day.

...an ice-breaker.

...full of variety .

...an avenue to be yourself.

...a great avenue for bonding and knowing .

...makes you wonder.

...adds to you identity.(oh this dish is ms x's fav , oh she cooks this dish wonderfully)

...a source to fetch u praises. (provided u r a good cook )

...a tool to avoid awkward silences..

...a nuisance when you have no one to have it with.

...at times expensive and totally not worth it.

...a factor that contributes greatly to the "It's lonely at the top" concept.

...a great way to get creative .

...a great source of delight, especially when u succeed in cooking .

...adds flavor to life .

...yuck.

...yummy.

...yummiest when ma makes it.

PS : Soon will u get to see d cake.....