A sweet friend tagged me for this lovely melodious tag.. i was asked to enque some hindi songs ..... first i thought to upload a new playlist coz the existing hindi playlist had many sad romantic melodies in it and i was listenin to this one after ages .. but then i was too lazy to do that and too excited to give it a shot.. so here we go ..lets play..
Rules for the tag :
1. Put your music player on shuffle mode.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. You must write the name of the song no matter what - no cheating ;)
IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Pyaar deevana hota hai mastana hota hai..
...If its not crazy then its not love :P
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Morni baaga mei bole aadhi raat ma..
...ohhoo.. cheerful Rajasthani :P
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Piya tose naina lage re.. jane kya ho ab aage re..
...Yes! i love to look straight in big deep eyes ;)
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Tum pukar lo.. tumhara intzaar hai..
...Yeah a bit lost in thoughts..
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
zindagi ek safar hai suhana
...Enjoi life to the fullest njoi the safar to the max coz u always remember how u felt during the journeys :D...
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Pal pal dil ke paas.. tum rehti ho..
...uffff...
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Nothing gonna change my love for you..
...wow! yes, i know you love me :)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Lo aa gayi unki yaad vo nahi aaye..
...Yes! i am missin them so much..
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Raat aur din diya jale.. mere mann mei phir bhi andheyara hai..
...Now this is amazing.. so right..
WHAT IS 2+2?
Ek pyaar ka nagma hai.. maujo ki rawani hai..
...2+2=1 (every child is special ....taare zameen par )
DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Tujhse naraz nahi zindagi hairan hoo mei..
...Yes i do and try to find answers to his Qs..
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Mere duniya mei aake.. mat ja.. mat ja...
...Yes! I hate when people i like leave .. either dont come close or stay for long..
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Dost dost na raha.. pyaar pyaar na raha..
...Amazing na how a single person changes the whole story of life hmmm..
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Chand aahein bharega.. phool dil tham lenge.. husn ki baat chali to sab tera naam lenge..
...loll.. how come winamp knows that i wanted to be a queen !!!sigh!!!but now iam a big girl and happy with what iam today :)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LOVE?
Chalo dildaar chalo.. chand ke paar chalo..
...mmm .. someone's fav song.. hum hai taiyaar chalo :P
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Ram kare aisa ho jaye.. meri nindiya tohe mil jaye..
...!!!sigh!!! true again.. every morning 8 am the first ques comes my way is.. slept well??
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Tera mera saath rahe.. dhoop ho ki chaya ho din ho ki raat rahe..
...uiii.. i was thinking bole chudiya bole kangana :P but this is one of my fav song.. beautiful..
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Oh re taal mile nadi ke jal mei.. nadi mile sagar mei..
...ummm.. ye no one knows where one goes after that..
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Pyaar manga hai tumhe se.. na inkaar karo...
...ohho.. ab to kuch bacha hi nahi kehne ko..
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Neele Neele ambar pe chaand jab aaye
...oooo i am highly passionate about the night sky and the moon ;)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Phoolo ka taro ka sabka kehna hai.. ek hazaron mei meri behna hai..
...Yes! iam so lucky to have most wonderful friends.. ek hazaron mei mere dost hai..
WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
Aane wala pal.. jane wala hai..
...Yes! cherish each moment & enjoy the life!!
well these songs left me thinking about my favourite hindi songs and i ended with a fairly long list
After this session got over i was presented with yet another set to be answered wrt the old hindi muzik i enjoy !! probably i was undergoin a test on my muzik taste hehehehe
LYRICS YOU LIKE THE MOST
k my favorite songs in terms of lyrics:
-Aaj phir jeene ki tamanna hai
-Chalo ek baar phir se ajnabi ban jaayein ham dono
-Kabhi Kisi Ko Mukammal Jahan nahin milta
-Tujhse Naraaz Nahin Zindagi, hairaan hoon main
YOUR FAVOURITE SONG ON FRIENDSHIP
-Yaroon dosti badi hi haseen hain,ye na hoto kya phir bolo ye zindagi hain
BEST SONG PORTRAYING LIFE'S EMOTIONS; ABOUT LIFE, FULL OF LIFE
-Zindagi aa raha hoon main
-Thode Hai Thode Ki Jaroorat Hai
-zindagi kaise hai paheli
-Katra Katra Milti Hai Katra Katra jeene do
SONG U R HUMMING TODAY
I have been thinking about this tag, so I am humming a whole lot of songs today :-
ONE SONG WHICH BRIGS TEARS TO YOUR EYES
Again, there is not one, but many ....
-Mujhko is raat ki tanhaii mein awaaz na do
-Yaad Na Jaye biite dinon ki
-Hoke majboor mujhe usne bhulaya hoga
-Koi Humdum Na Raha
-Waqt Ne Kiya Kya Haseen Sitam
-kasme Vaade Pyaar Wafa
A SONG WHICH GIVES YOU HOPE ,REASON TO TRY AGAIN AND AGIAN ,A REASON TO SAY THAT LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL
-Kahan tak yeh man ko andhere chalenge
-pootche hain zindagi,hamse jeene ki adaa,bole yeh raaste yaaro jaana hain kaha,ham toh hawaao pe likhte hain dastaan,ham mein hain woh hunar,chaa jaaye jaaye jaha
DWHEN YOU WANT TO BE WITH YOURSELF,SILENT AND CONTENT BUT WITH MUSIC,WITH SONG THAT WOULD BE?
Hmm ... cant say ... it all depends on the frame of mind ....
IF YOU HAVE TO EXPRESS YOUR LOVE FOR SOMEONE WITH A SONG WHICH WOULD THAT BE ?
-Hamein tumse pyar kitna
-Maang Ke Saath Tumhara
FIVE SONGS WHICH YOU LIKE THE MOST
This is the hardest. I tried hard, but couldnt shorten the list to a count of five.
-Aa chal ke tujhe
-Aanewala pal, jaane wala hai
-Tum Bin Jaoon Kahan
-pal pal dil ke paas
-phoolon ke rang se
-yeh sham mastani
-khwab ho tum ya koii hakikat
-ek ladki bheegi bhagi
And still ... it doesn't include some very very favorite songs ....
-Aajaa sanam madhur chandni mein ham
-Bekarar karke hamein yun na jaiye
-Chalte chalte mere yeh geet
-Dil ki nazar se
-Khamosh sa afsana
-Kisi Ki Muskurahaton Pe
-Mere samne wali khidki mein
-Na Tum Humen Jaano
-Neele Neele Ambar Par
-Pukarta Chala Hoon Main
-Rimjhim Gire Saawan
-Tumne Mujhe Dekha
-Yeh Chand Sa Roshan Chehra
-Yeh Raat Bheegi Bheegi
-ek roz main tadap kar
-mere samnewali khidki mein
-nakhrewali
-Huzoor iskadar bhi na itraake chaliye,Khuleaam na aanchal na leharaake chaliye
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Blank........
Sometimes there are so many thoughts going on in your head that it crosses that critical threshold beyond which it becomes impossible to concentrate. The efficiency of your brain drops to near zero levels. And then comes the Blank. Suddenly the brain flushes all the thoughts away and decides to sit totally idle, probably thinking to itself, "Screw it! I have had enough!"
Its quite frustrating really. I hate the Blank.
In a peculiar way of its own, the brain takes a vacation. It stops thinking, and then goes into that hibernation (which I called the Blank). When its done with its sleep, it demands more useless/mindless activities to keep itself amused (mindless amusement, that is). ........ And then you sit idle for some more time, staring at the monitor screen, recalling what not ,like while coding my plcc assignment when i was struck with the dear dearer n dearest segmentation fault , after debugging it for just some 4 hrs I recalled a statement given by my teacher "this is the course which will separate boys from men n girls from women" n i felt really really girlish at a moment ..... but then came an idea and an idea can change your life ...did some magic ,came back to code n guess what segmenataion was gone within 4 minutes :O( well i was myself amazed -again coz of the 4 mins n 4 hrs n yeah about the heights of my stupidity for performin such a silly billy error )
guess you just need something loud to distract yourself from the getting gripped into more idleness due to the silence
I did experience this Blank and its not pretty yaar but yeah in last two days i did discover how to fight this feeling too so if u too have ever faced such thing or ever go through such a feeling (hope u dont :)) feel free to contact one n only neha for the magic ;)
Its quite frustrating really. I hate the Blank.
In a peculiar way of its own, the brain takes a vacation. It stops thinking, and then goes into that hibernation (which I called the Blank). When its done with its sleep, it demands more useless/mindless activities to keep itself amused (mindless amusement, that is). ........ And then you sit idle for some more time, staring at the monitor screen, recalling what not ,like while coding my plcc assignment when i was struck with the dear dearer n dearest segmentation fault , after debugging it for just some 4 hrs I recalled a statement given by my teacher "this is the course which will separate boys from men n girls from women" n i felt really really girlish at a moment ..... but then came an idea and an idea can change your life ...did some magic ,came back to code n guess what segmenataion was gone within 4 minutes :O( well i was myself amazed -again coz of the 4 mins n 4 hrs n yeah about the heights of my stupidity for performin such a silly billy error )
guess you just need something loud to distract yourself from the getting gripped into more idleness due to the silence
I did experience this Blank and its not pretty yaar but yeah in last two days i did discover how to fight this feeling too so if u too have ever faced such thing or ever go through such a feeling (hope u dont :)) feel free to contact one n only neha for the magic ;)
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Venus favors intelligence :P
A friend of mine recently asked me whether I had thought her boyfriend was a flirt, and a Casanova the first time I had met him ......now that all three of us are good friends and may be would be a bit biased about answering ....
It got me thinking about the nature of people.And here i present my analysis- I realised that there is a big difference between flirts and Casanovas. And even within those who flirt.Flirting is an art ,its about wit, charm, sarcasm... it is about ‘playing’ with words, with ideas and heightening the experience of the moment between two people. It is what can display true intelligence. Some of the most flirtatious people I’ve found here atleast, are either in extremely committed relationships, or are at a very comfortable distance from most people they meet.
Lots of guys also think of themselves as flirts because they keep ogling and don’t feel shy about telling girls that they are pretty, that they are beautiful. And how much they are in love with them. Flattery is not equivalent to flirting. Flattery is a very boring try if you ask me, and infact, should come across very indirectly.
Flattery on one hand it’s annoying because it is quite patronising. Like you’re trying to woo a child with nice words, with a toy or something. On the other hand, it is something that only a child would do: try to flatter someone to get something.
No, actually it isn’t. Children never, ever use manipulation and flattery to get what they want. They throw a tantrum, and say it directly. Who am I trying to fool?
It is patronising. Most STEREOTYPES project women as ‘babies’. So I wouldn’t be surprised if that is the reason why flattery is used to try to woo women. As if the idea of a compliment is to offer some bait or something, and that really puts me off.
Well again opinions vary ,i jus remembered my friend contradicting me .. she loves lukin at the life through the kaliedoscopic prism of bollywood possibilities and thus flattery is a big turn on when it comes to her and i still remember it was so much of fun presenting her with all dumb bollywood filmi isshtyle logics when she was searchin for one to steal some of the precious moments of his crush ...
the besht and typical of them being my watch has stopped wrkin ,gotto go the repair shop ,mind accompanying me n the watch starts workin perfectly at the shopkeepers doorstep ...magica lolz and she taking all these advices seriously that was one moment i rolled out laughing ...Again the point was that what i may have suggested may have not appealed her coz there lies a vast difference in our approach towards life ,may be i get appeased by something simple and elegant but she prefers something exotic and bright....All sweet romantic bollywood stuff ,the hopping around trees and more :D
There is a certain boredom and mediocrity ... yes, if I may use the word ..in this that turns me off in some way....
Where are all the French restoration immoral wit combats that came out through the drama of the eighteenth century, or the dialogues in Jane Austen’s Pride and Prejudice, or some of the most witty, flirtatious lyrics from the old Hindi film songs lost?
Indirectness, satire, wit and may be sarcasm ...these are the things that spell intelligence and charm, atleast for me. I think the tendency to give compliments and sweet-talk belongs to the far more simplistic, to some another generation. Which does not mean that I’m saying you shouldn’t tell the person directly that you genuinely admire them if you do for whatever qualities they possess or don’t possess, or complement someone for being pretty. But it shows when someone really means what he or she is saying from the heart.
“Two paths diverged in the woods, and I – I took the less travelled one,” may I say? This is something about indecision also. Till a certain time in my life, I’d envied people who were confident; for whom things came very easily. There are people who are sure of things and likewise confident because they’ve never known the options that exist -- blissful in their ignorance. There are others, who can never be confident, because they can never get over the complexity of choice. There are probably one in a million who reach the level of true confidence after having implemented the idea that completeness is in the incomplete; that decision is in indecision and perfection in imperfection: go by your personal instincts.
I have found that there is very little apparent connection between the beginning of this post and the end of this post but whatever ....
signing off
neha
It got me thinking about the nature of people.And here i present my analysis- I realised that there is a big difference between flirts and Casanovas. And even within those who flirt.Flirting is an art ,its about wit, charm, sarcasm... it is about ‘playing’ with words, with ideas and heightening the experience of the moment between two people. It is what can display true intelligence. Some of the most flirtatious people I’ve found here atleast, are either in extremely committed relationships, or are at a very comfortable distance from most people they meet.
Lots of guys also think of themselves as flirts because they keep ogling and don’t feel shy about telling girls that they are pretty, that they are beautiful. And how much they are in love with them. Flattery is not equivalent to flirting. Flattery is a very boring try if you ask me, and infact, should come across very indirectly.
Flattery on one hand it’s annoying because it is quite patronising. Like you’re trying to woo a child with nice words, with a toy or something. On the other hand, it is something that only a child would do: try to flatter someone to get something.
No, actually it isn’t. Children never, ever use manipulation and flattery to get what they want. They throw a tantrum, and say it directly. Who am I trying to fool?
It is patronising. Most STEREOTYPES project women as ‘babies’. So I wouldn’t be surprised if that is the reason why flattery is used to try to woo women. As if the idea of a compliment is to offer some bait or something, and that really puts me off.
Well again opinions vary ,i jus remembered my friend contradicting me .. she loves lukin at the life through the kaliedoscopic prism of bollywood possibilities and thus flattery is a big turn on when it comes to her and i still remember it was so much of fun presenting her with all dumb bollywood filmi isshtyle logics when she was searchin for one to steal some of the precious moments of his crush ...
the besht and typical of them being my watch has stopped wrkin ,gotto go the repair shop ,mind accompanying me n the watch starts workin perfectly at the shopkeepers doorstep ...magica lolz and she taking all these advices seriously that was one moment i rolled out laughing ...Again the point was that what i may have suggested may have not appealed her coz there lies a vast difference in our approach towards life ,may be i get appeased by something simple and elegant but she prefers something exotic and bright....All sweet romantic bollywood stuff ,the hopping around trees and more :D
There is a certain boredom and mediocrity ... yes, if I may use the word ..in this that turns me off in some way....
Where are all the French restoration immoral wit combats that came out through the drama of the eighteenth century, or the dialogues in Jane Austen’s Pride and Prejudice, or some of the most witty, flirtatious lyrics from the old Hindi film songs lost?
Indirectness, satire, wit and may be sarcasm ...these are the things that spell intelligence and charm, atleast for me. I think the tendency to give compliments and sweet-talk belongs to the far more simplistic, to some another generation. Which does not mean that I’m saying you shouldn’t tell the person directly that you genuinely admire them if you do for whatever qualities they possess or don’t possess, or complement someone for being pretty. But it shows when someone really means what he or she is saying from the heart.
“Two paths diverged in the woods, and I – I took the less travelled one,” may I say? This is something about indecision also. Till a certain time in my life, I’d envied people who were confident; for whom things came very easily. There are people who are sure of things and likewise confident because they’ve never known the options that exist -- blissful in their ignorance. There are others, who can never be confident, because they can never get over the complexity of choice. There are probably one in a million who reach the level of true confidence after having implemented the idea that completeness is in the incomplete; that decision is in indecision and perfection in imperfection: go by your personal instincts.
I have found that there is very little apparent connection between the beginning of this post and the end of this post but whatever ....
signing off
neha
Thursday, February 21, 2008
deadlines....
It is funny how our lives have become a succession of deadlines and how we try to keep ourselves motivated by looking forward to specific dates we have marked as important in our personal diaries :).Fragments in time that we patiently anticipate and hope to fill our lives with joy, like young children wishing if some festive season was here . That is the meaning of life after all isn't it?
btw one important date i have a batch snap on 23rd feb :) event of the week in my diary :D
Monday, February 18, 2008
A memorable day ......
It started long back ,so many days crossed and nights passed and now it started expanding like virus"the hesitance "......I tried my best to skip it but i knew i will have to confront it and came the moment ,the intensifying moment.... Normally,every day we are all faced with small or big decisions that we have to take in our lives. But for some making a small step is perceived as being a giant leap that needs to be calculated over and over again. We are often unclear of what we want and leave the decisions to others or just try running away from it but this time there was no one to take the decision for me and it was to be ME n ME.....Usually I freeze when it comes to such situations . Me a true piscean highly indecisive :(.
14th feb 11 pm ,i go to my friends room and we about sailng in the same boat to the psenti semites asking should i take the first sem on or off ,and comes mydriad number of replies ,you should take it on only ,dont worry take on go ahead but then y u took off ? ...and comes various replies .....then some1 sayin sac life take on enjoy oasis ... another one -take off u'll crack it ... u wanna go for cat rite take on ...arre A7 take ne sem and the weirdest n unexpected reply freply "arre aage chalke tujhe khaana hi banaana hai toh naa kuch bhi kar le yaar "..take off take on ...take off ...take on ...eeeeeeeeeeeeeeh saturation
15th feb ,3 am My head was swirling and i decided to sleep off once again postponing the decision to the 15th day
2 pm , kriti- "neha on lo naaa "
swati " kya decide kiya " n me blank
supriya "yaar itna tension na lo acha kisi aur se baat karke dekho "
We seem unable to trust our instincts and logic and ask everybody of what they think in order to do somethings .....
3pm : so i decide to call upon my snrs n he asks ok what is ur aim , wat do u expect n then listening to my viewpoints he comes up with the same answer any sem would do "
next i call one of my batchmates to know about the stats .....he told something and asked to call a few more people to have the full coverage of the scenario .....
so i called up mr x ,mr y,mrz n mr wat not ...some n people leaving myself in a more puzzled state .Yeah but everybody use to end up in same words " its has to b ur decision ultimately "....
3:30 pm , priya di comes n i say lets study plcc and we start studying ,1 slide goes 2 3 4 5 ....but still nothing goes in my head for it was already saturated with words on off n no place was left for anything to sink in.And we thought of deciding first on the ON OFF issue .....
this that loads of arguements ,loads of fonecalls ,loads of tension,loads of confusion ,loads of stress...and clock strikes 7 ..."yes i got it " not the solution but another excuse to run away .."priya di dinner karke aate hein ,thodi der padhte hein n we'll decide later" and universe also conspires against you at times so when we were back from dinner the current was not there n the room seemed more deepressing and grey ......and i call upon mom and dad ...they again repeat " take ur decision and we have full confidence on our darlin daughter "...now these were the things running through my head
first sem vs second sem
more companies vs less companies
more time to prepare for cat vs structured prep'n for cat
more competition vs less competition
gen ps vs dream ps
summers vs winters
less confidence vs more confidence
oasis vs no oasis
friends vs ??????
no tension on pS vs tension throughout
this tat n blah blah blah .........
10 pm finally decided taking first sem "OFF".....okies time for treat , took another step ahead in life ....and i n priya di still wonderin that the decision finally is correct or not ....
12 am still no current,i tried sleepin but still something running through my head
2:30 am i fill the form finally keepin first sem "OFF"
7 am i am wide awake , donno y n i call up priya di that i am not feeling well n i headed towards her room
once again we went for brain storming ...
9 am we meet one senior and she asks me to call saahil and talk to him once ...once again it was just another brick in the wall ...
9:20 am ankur calls up asking are u ok , me jus bursted out and there were tears in my eyes ...and then came a word of relief " hey be urself ,listen to what ur heart says n go ahead we are all with you ,chill and go have a dairy milk ,tumhari saari icchayein poori hongi baalike "
9:30 we meet the placement volunteer and go to psd checking the placement list
n still i wasnt able to console myself ....
9:50 am we are entering the choices and i call up my mom asking her once again that should i go ahead and she says just be confident and go ahead ,this is just a small decision , life would not not come to a standstill ,u will keep moving so move on and take the step u decided go 4 ...finally submitted as 1st sem "OFF"
10 am aco class -multicycle path was goin on n i was still not out of the vicious cycle of indecisiveness ... the class got over and once again i was engaged on fone calling one of my friends .....then came the tym for dbs class , in a serious dilemma about attending or not ,priya di comes and says pehle decide karo ,take class lite but still i donno my conscience said to attend the class n i stepped in still lost in the thoughts ,n to my shock i didnt even took out my notebook , didnt listen a single word , and as i step out , kamiya comes up sayin "neha is everythin alright itni tension mein kyun ho " n i said no i m fine pretending my best to show i am at ease ......11:55 am kriti comes n says "neha i know jo decision liya woh theek hai but still ....." and we headed for consys class n i was still drifting through about what to do ,and then comes priya di n says take my form as well n take the decision n message me
.....then at 1 as i n manisha promised to meet in front of ram bhawan so that we could take the final and the binding opinion of our seniors karan ,i rushed after the class n in we were arguing in front of ram , and we call up karan bhaiya n he says its up to u but still i personally feel u should take it on n njoi the oasis
n finally yes i did it once again changing the decision n i opt for "ON" no more off's and i swid towards ipc to edit nthen call dad to seek his consent and he says i know whatever u have decided will fetch u good n i submitted the final choice !!!!!
hehe that was the day , when i said NO to breakfast NO to lunch n finally dairy milk in the evening as it called for celebrations now :)
finally i realized taking risks and making mistakes is what living is all about. I think that this is how we learn about ourselves, how we develop coping mechanisms and grow.I should take less tensions... This is what life is about and this is called living. I guess i can never forget 16 th feb..it was amongst "THE DAY "of my life
14th feb 11 pm ,i go to my friends room and we about sailng in the same boat to the psenti semites asking should i take the first sem on or off ,and comes mydriad number of replies ,you should take it on only ,dont worry take on go ahead but then y u took off ? ...and comes various replies .....then some1 sayin sac life take on enjoy oasis ... another one -take off u'll crack it ... u wanna go for cat rite take on ...arre A7 take ne sem and the weirdest n unexpected reply freply "arre aage chalke tujhe khaana hi banaana hai toh naa kuch bhi kar le yaar "..take off take on ...take off ...take on ...eeeeeeeeeeeeeeh saturation
15th feb ,3 am My head was swirling and i decided to sleep off once again postponing the decision to the 15th day
2 pm , kriti- "neha on lo naaa "
swati " kya decide kiya " n me blank
supriya "yaar itna tension na lo acha kisi aur se baat karke dekho "
We seem unable to trust our instincts and logic and ask everybody of what they think in order to do somethings .....
3pm : so i decide to call upon my snrs n he asks ok what is ur aim , wat do u expect n then listening to my viewpoints he comes up with the same answer any sem would do "
next i call one of my batchmates to know about the stats .....he told something and asked to call a few more people to have the full coverage of the scenario .....
so i called up mr x ,mr y,mrz n mr wat not ...some n people leaving myself in a more puzzled state .Yeah but everybody use to end up in same words " its has to b ur decision ultimately "....
3:30 pm , priya di comes n i say lets study plcc and we start studying ,1 slide goes 2 3 4 5 ....but still nothing goes in my head for it was already saturated with words on off n no place was left for anything to sink in.And we thought of deciding first on the ON OFF issue .....
this that loads of arguements ,loads of fonecalls ,loads of tension,loads of confusion ,loads of stress...and clock strikes 7 ..."yes i got it " not the solution but another excuse to run away .."priya di dinner karke aate hein ,thodi der padhte hein n we'll decide later" and universe also conspires against you at times so when we were back from dinner the current was not there n the room seemed more deepressing and grey ......and i call upon mom and dad ...they again repeat " take ur decision and we have full confidence on our darlin daughter "...now these were the things running through my head
first sem vs second sem
more companies vs less companies
more time to prepare for cat vs structured prep'n for cat
more competition vs less competition
gen ps vs dream ps
summers vs winters
less confidence vs more confidence
oasis vs no oasis
friends vs ??????
no tension on pS vs tension throughout
this tat n blah blah blah .........
10 pm finally decided taking first sem "OFF".....okies time for treat , took another step ahead in life ....and i n priya di still wonderin that the decision finally is correct or not ....
12 am still no current,i tried sleepin but still something running through my head
2:30 am i fill the form finally keepin first sem "OFF"
7 am i am wide awake , donno y n i call up priya di that i am not feeling well n i headed towards her room
once again we went for brain storming ...
9 am we meet one senior and she asks me to call saahil and talk to him once ...once again it was just another brick in the wall ...
9:20 am ankur calls up asking are u ok , me jus bursted out and there were tears in my eyes ...and then came a word of relief " hey be urself ,listen to what ur heart says n go ahead we are all with you ,chill and go have a dairy milk ,tumhari saari icchayein poori hongi baalike "
9:30 we meet the placement volunteer and go to psd checking the placement list
n still i wasnt able to console myself ....
9:50 am we are entering the choices and i call up my mom asking her once again that should i go ahead and she says just be confident and go ahead ,this is just a small decision , life would not not come to a standstill ,u will keep moving so move on and take the step u decided go 4 ...finally submitted as 1st sem "OFF"
10 am aco class -multicycle path was goin on n i was still not out of the vicious cycle of indecisiveness ... the class got over and once again i was engaged on fone calling one of my friends .....then came the tym for dbs class , in a serious dilemma about attending or not ,priya di comes and says pehle decide karo ,take class lite but still i donno my conscience said to attend the class n i stepped in still lost in the thoughts ,n to my shock i didnt even took out my notebook , didnt listen a single word , and as i step out , kamiya comes up sayin "neha is everythin alright itni tension mein kyun ho " n i said no i m fine pretending my best to show i am at ease ......11:55 am kriti comes n says "neha i know jo decision liya woh theek hai but still ....." and we headed for consys class n i was still drifting through about what to do ,and then comes priya di n says take my form as well n take the decision n message me
.....then at 1 as i n manisha promised to meet in front of ram bhawan so that we could take the final and the binding opinion of our seniors karan ,i rushed after the class n in we were arguing in front of ram , and we call up karan bhaiya n he says its up to u but still i personally feel u should take it on n njoi the oasis
n finally yes i did it once again changing the decision n i opt for "ON" no more off's and i swid towards ipc to edit nthen call dad to seek his consent and he says i know whatever u have decided will fetch u good n i submitted the final choice !!!!!
hehe that was the day , when i said NO to breakfast NO to lunch n finally dairy milk in the evening as it called for celebrations now :)
finally i realized taking risks and making mistakes is what living is all about. I think that this is how we learn about ourselves, how we develop coping mechanisms and grow.I should take less tensions... This is what life is about and this is called living. I guess i can never forget 16 th feb..it was amongst "THE DAY "of my life
Friday, February 15, 2008
If u were ........
If you were a flower, what kind would you be & why? hehe this was the question which i confronted today while having a nice discussion with my friend (was kinda free today after the test,so didnt had much of things running in my head :D)He actually started talking about flowers recently as they are popping up all over the place as Spring arrives :)n probably he would have got loads too as it's the valentine's day :D
Well flowers remind me of people. There are SO many varieties, shapes & colors. According to my friends, Roses are the most popular. Why? Well, because they are stunningly beautiful and have an intoxicating, sweet smell. Roses come in all kinds of colors, red, white, black, pink, yellow, peach- but they still have thorns. Though I certainly admire them, roses aren't my favorite flowers definitely. I associate them with sadness as they fade within 2-3 days after receiving them. They are delicate and don't last long before their petals wilt. My favorite flower is the Carnation. Now comes Why? well i kinda find them close to myself .They are cheerful, hearty little blooms that also come in a variety of colors. Far less costly than roses(well me not a miser just like being economical :D)their warm, spicy scent is subtle- not overpowering. They are simple,elegant and sweet and can cheer you up Carnations blend well with other buds and are enduring.(If i link it up with the analogy of my life its really great having so many friends n all different in their own kinds n recently got the title of simplicity again ,while studying we were actually bored and priya asks hey what is ur sunsign n baffled i answer pisces lekin apne kyun poocha n she says u r not at all complicated ,your taste is biased towards simplicity in every context :) unlike ur zodiac traits of being complex yeah but u r really indecisive n i was nodding with a smile ... ) .So i would have loved being a carnation i guess :D
Saturday, February 09, 2008
Feel it !!!
Have you ever experienced such beautiful moment in your life when you just ran out of words .... ?
the moment when you left your home for the first time and you look back at your parents who are worried that their son/daughter are leaving them yet happy that their child took the first step towards independence.......
the moment when you are alone and you smile silently as you recall something/someone, it is then when you really mean it..(it happened and happens with every one of us, is not it?)
the moment when the girl/boy you like most.. smiled back at you!You didn't say anything.. you just smile back n turned around did a miny jig..(haha choo cute)
the moment when you get better marks than you expected... those "numb" moments of ecstasy n surprise "is that true?"...(with that cute confused face,wow)
the moment when you hear that class is cancelled today and you have a nice coffee in sky lawns and go about discussing what not with your friends :)....(it derives you such great pleasure)
the moment when someone who is very very close to you is going away from you, as they leave, your hands stretch out as to stop them, but then you pull it back coz you know they would be better off if let gone, you smile and wish no matter where they go they always be happy..
.....the moment when u r alone in ur room, listening to your favorite number, enjoying each word of it, singing along, dancing freely as if no one is watching, its the moment when u enjoy being with yourself in that silent...
....when you sit silently n the terrace gazing at the dark star studded sky and all of a sudden a cold wind touches you off giving you goosebumbs...(feel it!)
....the moment when you are lying down n your bed engrossed in a novel, as you go through it, while turning the page (for that slight moment) where you start visualizing each scene as if you are watching a movie, the characters rushing through your mind in flash back, and you sub consciously start forseeing the future course of the story, looking forward to read the next page with eagerness more then what was there before...(i just love it !!!)
...when someobody you have been thinking about calls you up or buzzes you on messenger ...(somebody there in your mind now, hehe!!)
....When your cell phone rings and you see the name of the one you love, for that fraction of second (after the ring, and before you pick up the phone) the silent smile that covers up your face is priceless
...When your friends says something to you, you look at them, (though actualy not looking at them) as you are completely lost in the thoughts , its then when you are moonstruck, and you smile silently (notwithstanding your friends may be crying hoarse to get your attention, lolz)..
...the moment when you accidentally hear somebody say something good about you..(ahhh haaa,lolz)
Ever had those moments when you thought you were tired enough that you reach for your bed after dinner.. but find yourself wide awake looking at the roof of your room silently...But you sure are 'thinking'... those moments of self-talk are the most important in our lives. Those moments when we listen to our hearts! Those promises... those decisions... those are the moments when we make our destinies!
Always maintain a silent smile...savor the moment..enjoy lifes little pleasure coz small things makes life beautiful in the most beautiful way...
You can go on remembering your "special" moments!I had always wondered why I never said anything to myself at those moments.. as if it was "understood"...
Love. Joy. Grief. Surprise. Anger. Hope. Expectations. Support. Non-cooperation... happiness, joy, pain.. all feelings just flowed ceaselessly in the 'years' that passed in those flash moments!
neha :)
the moment when you left your home for the first time and you look back at your parents who are worried that their son/daughter are leaving them yet happy that their child took the first step towards independence.......
the moment when you are alone and you smile silently as you recall something/someone, it is then when you really mean it..(it happened and happens with every one of us, is not it?)
the moment when the girl/boy you like most.. smiled back at you!You didn't say anything.. you just smile back n turned around did a miny jig..(haha choo cute)
the moment when you get better marks than you expected... those "numb" moments of ecstasy n surprise "is that true?"...(with that cute confused face,wow)
the moment when you hear that class is cancelled today and you have a nice coffee in sky lawns and go about discussing what not with your friends :)....(it derives you such great pleasure)
the moment when someone who is very very close to you is going away from you, as they leave, your hands stretch out as to stop them, but then you pull it back coz you know they would be better off if let gone, you smile and wish no matter where they go they always be happy..
.....the moment when u r alone in ur room, listening to your favorite number, enjoying each word of it, singing along, dancing freely as if no one is watching, its the moment when u enjoy being with yourself in that silent...
....when you sit silently n the terrace gazing at the dark star studded sky and all of a sudden a cold wind touches you off giving you goosebumbs...(feel it!)
....the moment when you are lying down n your bed engrossed in a novel, as you go through it, while turning the page (for that slight moment) where you start visualizing each scene as if you are watching a movie, the characters rushing through your mind in flash back, and you sub consciously start forseeing the future course of the story, looking forward to read the next page with eagerness more then what was there before...(i just love it !!!)
...when someobody you have been thinking about calls you up or buzzes you on messenger ...(somebody there in your mind now, hehe!!)
....When your cell phone rings and you see the name of the one you love, for that fraction of second (after the ring, and before you pick up the phone) the silent smile that covers up your face is priceless
...When your friends says something to you, you look at them, (though actualy not looking at them) as you are completely lost in the thoughts , its then when you are moonstruck, and you smile silently (notwithstanding your friends may be crying hoarse to get your attention, lolz)..
...the moment when you accidentally hear somebody say something good about you..(ahhh haaa,lolz)
Ever had those moments when you thought you were tired enough that you reach for your bed after dinner.. but find yourself wide awake looking at the roof of your room silently...But you sure are 'thinking'... those moments of self-talk are the most important in our lives. Those moments when we listen to our hearts! Those promises... those decisions... those are the moments when we make our destinies!
Always maintain a silent smile...savor the moment..enjoy lifes little pleasure coz small things makes life beautiful in the most beautiful way...
You can go on remembering your "special" moments!I had always wondered why I never said anything to myself at those moments.. as if it was "understood"...
Love. Joy. Grief. Surprise. Anger. Hope. Expectations. Support. Non-cooperation... happiness, joy, pain.. all feelings just flowed ceaselessly in the 'years' that passed in those flash moments!
neha :)
Sunday, February 03, 2008
winter nights :D
Nights, as i call it "the best time to reflect upon ", has kinda always fascinated me. The wintry nights in particular.... The dark star studded sky fallin on us, the moon inviting us to come over and dine amongst the stars. The soothing cold wind giving us goosebumbs, a chill down our spine The silence of the night is so relieving, so enthralling yet so enigmatic. The other day i went to my balcony (dont call me insane to walk out in balcony barefooted ,actually had a fone call and signals werent proper in the room )while talking i started gazing the sky, as if asking something, searching something over there. The wide spread of the same made me feel so timid as if the vast expanse of knowledge is yet to be revealed. The inherent mysticism in the sky made me feel it's playing games with us and smiling at us almost sneeringly on our ignorance.As I told u before ,I was barefoot, the cold dew made my feet wet and it was just wow(though i am havin a bad cold... fever ,running nose n continuos coughing :() .However , the refreshing air i inhaled made me feel like i am emptying myself to something. Every breath was so refreshing and had so much to say. I almost involutarily closed my eyes, surrendering myself to it, allowed the soothing air to sashay me at its will as if i am a mere puppet. It is mysterious, captivating and inviting. We get answers for the questions we would never be able to frame. The sky stays there like always, so does the moon and the stars, still everyday there is a new story to be told, to be unfolded. Just like when we look at a piece of a painting. We come out with our own interpretation of the inherent meaning behind it, same with the night. there is wisdom in there, beyond our comprehension. It is always a novel feeling..
ahhh...that reminds me of a quote..",If a lover is like a moon. friends are like stars, have you ever noticed that night can look beautiful without moon but never without stars."
However somebody rightly contradicted, almost rhetorically and ironically,"but then even all stars taken together cannot shine as bright as a single moon.!?!"
Some people smitten by superstition harbours negative notions associated with nights, but i would rather glaringly contradict it and say "God gave us night we called it darkness"...
Okk so the whole point of this rather prosy introduction is that, my new found romance with wintery nights has tickled the dormant poet (a poet from nowhere and without rhyme and reason) in me once again..
ahhh...that reminds me of a quote..",If a lover is like a moon. friends are like stars, have you ever noticed that night can look beautiful without moon but never without stars."
However somebody rightly contradicted, almost rhetorically and ironically,"but then even all stars taken together cannot shine as bright as a single moon.!?!"
Some people smitten by superstition harbours negative notions associated with nights, but i would rather glaringly contradict it and say "God gave us night we called it darkness"...
Okk so the whole point of this rather prosy introduction is that, my new found romance with wintery nights has tickled the dormant poet (a poet from nowhere and without rhyme and reason) in me once again..
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Vistaaaa!!!!!!!!
Its the third Techfest at my college that i am goin to b a witness to. The one thing that i like about Techfest is that its held during perfect tym March , everythin is perfect then .....
You know i was thinking the other day about life and how it goes on in a seemingly monotonous fashion. We go from one event to another. We play a multitude of roles. We are sometimes the participants and sometimes the organisers(coordinator for an event ). Hopefully(or not), we will someday be the administration as well… That got me thinking.. Y do we lead an existence like this?? What are we getting out of life?? Do we extract from life what we want or do we extract from life what we can?? And on that profoundly philosophical note( atleast i hope it is)….
Now comes to the event i am a part of ,named “Garovista” to show our understanding of the need of the participants "vision” .Organizin an event is really great , me workin in collaboration wid 4 more ppl and all of them r really cool ,we share ideas ,discuss abt our point of views n yeah contradict each other too :D. Its fun overall .It gives a hands on management experience..More importantly, you should be working with loads of zeal and enthusiasm when 'people who matter' are in the near vicinity,me lucky to have one jnr and his sm1 a part of our event ,( ur wrk will b done :D) Does this sound like grapes are sour ? Sure does:( ,when no-one really matters to u . nehow.......
A never before rush in hosting an event and pulling it off splendidly with a very short prep time.It connects the participant’s ideas and opinions directly to an event and its functionality and we call it "garovista" a vision for showcasing ur ideas . Come and get a HANDS ON experience!!!
An individual or a team of 3 can showcase their dexterity in the field of image processing .it really called upon innovative ideas - organizing a unique fun-filled technical event.I am really njoyin being a part of this team ,thnx to our coord for lettin me deal wid this event .work is so much fun when it comes to ur interest n when u have rite ppl around wid rite spirits n attitude :) . The proposed event is expected to be a single session event with activities not extending beyond a day ( 4 hrs :D i guess tat makes the day for techfest ) with happening prelims so jus dont miss being a part of excitin prelims if u really feel for ip(img proc) :P
. Based upon the novelty of the idea, and extent of promise the proposed event holds, Top 10 -15 teams will be short listed and will go on to host their very own ip skills at the exclusive event "garovista "at Apogee‘08…hopin its loads n loads of fun
signing off
neha
You know i was thinking the other day about life and how it goes on in a seemingly monotonous fashion. We go from one event to another. We play a multitude of roles. We are sometimes the participants and sometimes the organisers(coordinator for an event ). Hopefully(or not), we will someday be the administration as well… That got me thinking.. Y do we lead an existence like this?? What are we getting out of life?? Do we extract from life what we want or do we extract from life what we can?? And on that profoundly philosophical note( atleast i hope it is)….
Now comes to the event i am a part of ,named “Garovista” to show our understanding of the need of the participants "vision” .Organizin an event is really great , me workin in collaboration wid 4 more ppl and all of them r really cool ,we share ideas ,discuss abt our point of views n yeah contradict each other too :D. Its fun overall .It gives a hands on management experience..More importantly, you should be working with loads of zeal and enthusiasm when 'people who matter' are in the near vicinity,me lucky to have one jnr and his sm1 a part of our event ,( ur wrk will b done :D) Does this sound like grapes are sour ? Sure does:( ,when no-one really matters to u . nehow.......
A never before rush in hosting an event and pulling it off splendidly with a very short prep time.It connects the participant’s ideas and opinions directly to an event and its functionality and we call it "garovista" a vision for showcasing ur ideas . Come and get a HANDS ON experience!!!
An individual or a team of 3 can showcase their dexterity in the field of image processing .it really called upon innovative ideas - organizing a unique fun-filled technical event.I am really njoyin being a part of this team ,thnx to our coord for lettin me deal wid this event .work is so much fun when it comes to ur interest n when u have rite ppl around wid rite spirits n attitude :) . The proposed event is expected to be a single session event with activities not extending beyond a day ( 4 hrs :D i guess tat makes the day for techfest ) with happening prelims so jus dont miss being a part of excitin prelims if u really feel for ip(img proc) :P
. Based upon the novelty of the idea, and extent of promise the proposed event holds, Top 10 -15 teams will be short listed and will go on to host their very own ip skills at the exclusive event "garovista "at Apogee‘08…hopin its loads n loads of fun
signing off
neha
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Sometimes silence says more......
I know it's been a while since I last wrote a post. I think about it. But don't seem to have the inspiration to write. I believe this silence is from inner reflection.....
there was nothin much to share i guess ....Then I have a thought of 'I have to post SOMEthing! It's been so long! Think! Think of something! Anything... who cares if it comes from your heart, your passion!?'
so here it goes..... Well recently i saw the pic i ever dreamed of ......“On the shores of a beautiful lake, is a beautiful garden filled with lush green coconut or palm trees. In the middle of the garden sits a beautiful house. In the house, I sit all day and listen to evergreen songs. When bored, I would go fishing in that beautiful lake (a music system is a must for the boat”). This had been my dream place for sometime the time i was in goa i guess . Sounds boring? Hmm…I know.
But one of these days I decided I should stop dreaming and instead work towards the dream. . Me being me…have started thinking in terms of collecting my favorite songs I would like to listen during those daysAs I browsed through the songs I used to like, I noticed one nice thing about them. They brought me back those good/bad memories of past. I could recollect almost all the incidents that happened during that phase of my life. When I played those songs, I went through exact same emotions of my past.
In these thoughts … when I dwelled a little deeper, I even noticed that I have a song associated with every person whom I have known. When replayed…the song brings me back those moments I had shared them.You are able record parts of your life through a song and play it back! Infact irrespective what lyrics is written in the song, irrespective of what kind of song it is eg kya hua tera vaayda or kabhi kabhi reminds me of ma papa (thr fav no ), aadat reminds me of kanu , mera kuch saaman ...of sm1 , turn back time reminds me of priyanshu ,of recent shakeera's hips dont lie reminds me of goa :P…
your moments gets saved. Sounds amazing isn’t it?
there was nothin much to share i guess ....Then I have a thought of 'I have to post SOMEthing! It's been so long! Think! Think of something! Anything... who cares if it comes from your heart, your passion!?'
so here it goes..... Well recently i saw the pic i ever dreamed of ......“On the shores of a beautiful lake, is a beautiful garden filled with lush green coconut or palm trees. In the middle of the garden sits a beautiful house. In the house, I sit all day and listen to evergreen songs. When bored, I would go fishing in that beautiful lake (a music system is a must for the boat”). This had been my dream place for sometime the time i was in goa i guess . Sounds boring? Hmm…I know.
But one of these days I decided I should stop dreaming and instead work towards the dream. . Me being me…have started thinking in terms of collecting my favorite songs I would like to listen during those daysAs I browsed through the songs I used to like, I noticed one nice thing about them. They brought me back those good/bad memories of past. I could recollect almost all the incidents that happened during that phase of my life. When I played those songs, I went through exact same emotions of my past.
In these thoughts … when I dwelled a little deeper, I even noticed that I have a song associated with every person whom I have known. When replayed…the song brings me back those moments I had shared them.You are able record parts of your life through a song and play it back! Infact irrespective what lyrics is written in the song, irrespective of what kind of song it is eg kya hua tera vaayda or kabhi kabhi reminds me of ma papa (thr fav no ), aadat reminds me of kanu , mera kuch saaman ...of sm1 , turn back time reminds me of priyanshu ,of recent shakeera's hips dont lie reminds me of goa :P…
your moments gets saved. Sounds amazing isn’t it?
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