I love the rain. It is truly the most beautiful and sublime act of nature (if we ignore its
capacity for destruction).
Some of my most vivid sensations are of the rain; I love
the smell that emanates from dry earth, when the first drops of rain fall on it…
the feel of wet grass after a sudden shower…
the sound of the rain, pitter-patter on the ground…
the sight of rain drops trickling from the roof and car windows…
cupping my hands to form a pool of rain, and wiping my face with the water…
turning my face towards the sky, and feeling the drops fall on my face…
the freshness in the atmosphere and the earth after the rains…
fresh silvery green color of trees, dewy drops on leaves and flowers, puddles on the
ground that go splash…
A lot many of my fond memories of life are also of the rains
I remember going to school on a Thursday many many years ago… it had been pouring
non-stop for many days and I was waiting for the school bus at a bus stop which was
about 5 minutes walking distance away from my home. The bus failed to turn up, and
someone then came and told me that there wasn’t any school that day (some election
crap ); so I started walking back home in my school uniform. It was pouring cats
and dogs, and there was water on the road a little above my ankles - I was so
exhilarated with the feel and sound of the rain, (and the thought that I didn’t have to go to school ;)) that I closed the umbrella, started singing my favorite songs and splashing around in the water, while walking back home - the people on the road must have thought that I was mad but I had not a care in the world
Another very beautiful memory of the rain was when I went to Bombay/Mumbai once,
during the monsoon season. I went to the Juhu beach, and as soon as I stepped into the water, it started raining like crazy… and soon, there we all were, being showered with cold water from the sky, whilst being waist-deep in the warm water of the sea, and having the tide throw us around in the water… heavenly :).
Again, today (my college days),I sensed that it would rain .It seems that he universe conspires to do things in your favour ....my cycle was punctured and I had an amazing opportunity to walk in the rain , was having fun holding on to an umbrella and walking in the middle of the road , freaking out as usual…but the best part was the BONUS….it was a Hail Storm and my first experience of it in my college …Magica!!!
Monday, March 12, 2007
Sunday, March 11, 2007
“Oh well that’s me”
I have been wondering lately about this thing we call “personality”. A term which we so often use to describe ourselves and other people. Charming, cool, hard working, clever, generous, powerful, lazy, are among many of the words we employ to explain how we see ourselves and others. But the word personality is also often used as a screen behind which we hide or defend the way we are. I have so often heard people say “Oh well that’s me,” when you ask why they’re angry or unpunctual or generally when they behave like boors. “That’s me.” Nice way to fob off further inquiry or to resist change of any sort, especially when accompanied by a particular tone of voice which puts a stop to any sort of investigation.
In a way it seems that one’s personality is indeed built around the natural essence of an individual and that it is what lends colour to our lives together: the fact that we are so different from each other and in a sense irreplaceable, although the difference is more like the form, the pattern or colour which is capable of turning the same lump of clay into so many different objects. But then, as much as one’s personality reflects one’s inner essence it is also a reaction to the environment, an accumulation of learned characteristics, often an outcome of our defences and our struggle against all that disturbs us about life.
So you have people who appear mean or cruel, or seem to be always in a rage, or come across as arrogant. They are often that way because the circumstances of their lives probably persuaded them early on in life that the only way to cope, or to survive as the case may be, was to develop characteristics which would help them “protect themselves” their personal identity being a major part of the “self”.
The trouble is we don’t realise, that what we project to others or what we see in each other are really surface characteristics and we start to identify ourselves and others with the labels which sum up these traits. Cool, hep, quick, smart, rebellious, crazy, dreamy. When it comes ourselves we take pride in the labels we apply to ourselves. When it comes to others however, we are likely to damn them so that cool becomes cold, hep becomes superficial, quick can be seen as cunning and so on. In either case, we pick out aspects of our own and other people’s personalities which we isolate and use to describe the whole person.
To use the concept of personality to freeze our self image and that of the others is to turn ourselves and each other into cardboard figures and deny ourselves access to the natural richness which accompanies a fluid personality. An idea, in this way, limits us and renders us incapable of the magical transformations which define life itself. If you are one of those who no longer knows how to define him/herself, who finds it difficult to say with any degree of firmness that you are “this” or “that” kind of person, I imagine you’ve made a start and are on the way to climbing out of the cardboard cut-out in which you’ve lived so far and on the way to becoming a real human being.
In a way it seems that one’s personality is indeed built around the natural essence of an individual and that it is what lends colour to our lives together: the fact that we are so different from each other and in a sense irreplaceable, although the difference is more like the form, the pattern or colour which is capable of turning the same lump of clay into so many different objects. But then, as much as one’s personality reflects one’s inner essence it is also a reaction to the environment, an accumulation of learned characteristics, often an outcome of our defences and our struggle against all that disturbs us about life.
So you have people who appear mean or cruel, or seem to be always in a rage, or come across as arrogant. They are often that way because the circumstances of their lives probably persuaded them early on in life that the only way to cope, or to survive as the case may be, was to develop characteristics which would help them “protect themselves” their personal identity being a major part of the “self”.
The trouble is we don’t realise, that what we project to others or what we see in each other are really surface characteristics and we start to identify ourselves and others with the labels which sum up these traits. Cool, hep, quick, smart, rebellious, crazy, dreamy. When it comes ourselves we take pride in the labels we apply to ourselves. When it comes to others however, we are likely to damn them so that cool becomes cold, hep becomes superficial, quick can be seen as cunning and so on. In either case, we pick out aspects of our own and other people’s personalities which we isolate and use to describe the whole person.
To use the concept of personality to freeze our self image and that of the others is to turn ourselves and each other into cardboard figures and deny ourselves access to the natural richness which accompanies a fluid personality. An idea, in this way, limits us and renders us incapable of the magical transformations which define life itself. If you are one of those who no longer knows how to define him/herself, who finds it difficult to say with any degree of firmness that you are “this” or “that” kind of person, I imagine you’ve made a start and are on the way to climbing out of the cardboard cut-out in which you’ve lived so far and on the way to becoming a real human being.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
defining "defining moments "
I am a strong believer in defining moments.now i dont know the significance of a defining moment or the deeper meaning behind it but i believe that defining moments happen.
To me a defining moment is one which you wont ever forget. Its something that will shape you as a person and will shape the way you lead your life. It may have a small affect (so much so that you dont recognise it) or it may have a powerful affect. A defining moment can occur when you meet someone for the very first time... When you say goodbye to someone.... when you figure something out.. when you see something special... when you feel something special... It could be anything.
Maybe at first you dont recognise your defining moments. Maybe one day you look back and you can see all the moments that you still remember (when you're 85 or something) and realise that they defined you.
To me a defining moment is one which you wont ever forget. Its something that will shape you as a person and will shape the way you lead your life. It may have a small affect (so much so that you dont recognise it) or it may have a powerful affect. A defining moment can occur when you meet someone for the very first time... When you say goodbye to someone.... when you figure something out.. when you see something special... when you feel something special... It could be anything.
Maybe at first you dont recognise your defining moments. Maybe one day you look back and you can see all the moments that you still remember (when you're 85 or something) and realise that they defined you.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
a smile :)
Its been a while since i last updated my blog but its just because i have had no time to sit down and elaborate on any feelings or experiences and i dont want my blog to just be all anecdotes with "i did this, and i did that, then i saw this, and had that, etc etc".
I emailed a friend today that I haven't seen for years and years. Emailing her brought back so many memories of days gone past. Memories of how stupid I was, memories of simple times.... times before I had the burden of experience and hindsight.
I think experience can be a burden. It can inhibit us and can stifle our personalities for fear of the same mistakes recreating themselves. We are so so keen to learn lessons and learn from mistakes that when we fall off our bike we don't dust ourselves down and get back on.... we dust ourselves down and decide that the lesson was "not to ride the bike". Is this right? Or is this wrong?
I forgot how similar we were. We were close for a reason. We didn't know each other for long but we were close for the time that we did know each other and now I can remember why. Our mind works in the same way as mine having similar fears and similar worries. Is this more important then having similar interests and similar love of things?
isn't it sad to think that there is always a price to pay for happiness.....?
Today I have had a big big big smile on my face all day. I don't know why! At one point I was neutral, not happy, not sad. And suddenly I could feel myself instantly becoming happy. Something I could feel running through my blood (endorphines??). How weird. Some say I smile a lot... Apparently I have a big big smile.
isn't smiling the most amazing feeling in the world?
I emailed a friend today that I haven't seen for years and years. Emailing her brought back so many memories of days gone past. Memories of how stupid I was, memories of simple times.... times before I had the burden of experience and hindsight.
I think experience can be a burden. It can inhibit us and can stifle our personalities for fear of the same mistakes recreating themselves. We are so so keen to learn lessons and learn from mistakes that when we fall off our bike we don't dust ourselves down and get back on.... we dust ourselves down and decide that the lesson was "not to ride the bike". Is this right? Or is this wrong?
I forgot how similar we were. We were close for a reason. We didn't know each other for long but we were close for the time that we did know each other and now I can remember why. Our mind works in the same way as mine having similar fears and similar worries. Is this more important then having similar interests and similar love of things?
isn't it sad to think that there is always a price to pay for happiness.....?
Today I have had a big big big smile on my face all day. I don't know why! At one point I was neutral, not happy, not sad. And suddenly I could feel myself instantly becoming happy. Something I could feel running through my blood (endorphines??). How weird. Some say I smile a lot... Apparently I have a big big smile.
isn't smiling the most amazing feeling in the world?
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
hooray!!!!
Hooray!!! Yippie!!! Exams are over,FINALLY. BLAW today was fine, hope I was on the right track. Semester 1 was over, 18 weeks in BITS, was indeed fufulling. With every week filled with assignments and tuts, time fly past real fast.
I want to go on a giant shopping spree today to reward myself for having survived a nasty awful semester! lolzzz(Outlet stores would involved, and some italian food too... ah, lovely.)so TATAAA
I want to go on a giant shopping spree today to reward myself for having survived a nasty awful semester! lolzzz(Outlet stores would involved, and some italian food too... ah, lovely.)so TATAAA
Monday, December 11, 2006
analogy b/w repwri n es lolzzzz
"hehe i jus finished writin my "es-1"(electrical-sciences) exam nd have to go about writing another one" rep wri " (report writing ), and i thot of redesigning one of the chapters of rep wri (lolzzz es-1 seems to have a real lastin impact on me)
In this chapter we discuss the characteristic of a few electrical components and compare it with the human ego. In this chapter we discuss as to how each component behaves when placed directly across a voltage source. In real-life this voltage source can be any person who has immense knowledge in a certain area. So basically we here discuss how various human beings with varied levels of ego react to a knowledgeable person.
(i) Capacitors & Inductors: In theory, Inductors and Capacitors do not have ego. Which in other words mean, they do not resist to the flow of I (information). The process of accepting I stops only when they have knowledge (or V) comparable to the source. Such characteristics, helps them in building great amount of energy inside them. Though both can store a lot of energy in their life time, they can never aid the society by converting it into any other useful form. What use is electrical energy, when you cannot use it to help the society? There is a use. When a fully charged capacitor is connected across a load, it discharges the energy it has onto that load. This, in other words means that it starts imparting the knowledge it gained back to the society! This remains the only advantage of such components.Example: Most professors who keep educating a lot of students in their life, but do not use this knowledge in their research, fall into this category.
(ii) Diode: Interesting component. A diode could be a highly egoistic or least egoistic component depending on its bias. In theory, while being forward biased it offers no resistance, hence accepts all the information. But, when reverse biased, it blocks the flow of I completely, unless the voltage of the knowledge source is too high to break its ego! Such egoistic diodes are of no or very less use to the society. Even while being forward biased, since they have no resistance, they act like a connecting wire which cannot store any energy in it. In real life they are useless, unless you want to block all the information coming towards you!Example: People who think they know everything or at least think it is bad to accept that they do not know or understand things around them fit into this category
(iii) Resistor: Resistors are one of the most widely used components in any electrical circuit. They have just enough ego to block all the unwanted information and allow the wanted ones alone. Though a resistor cannot store energy like a capacitor or an inductor, it can always use the I(information). Any application where energy conversion is required a resistor is used. The light bulb we use or the water heaters that we use are all using resistors ability to convert the information into useful energy.Example: People who has good listening ears and also a sound mind which can think and use the information that they have gained fit into this category.
So what are you? A diode, a Resistor or a Capacitor?
In this chapter we discuss the characteristic of a few electrical components and compare it with the human ego. In this chapter we discuss as to how each component behaves when placed directly across a voltage source. In real-life this voltage source can be any person who has immense knowledge in a certain area. So basically we here discuss how various human beings with varied levels of ego react to a knowledgeable person.
(i) Capacitors & Inductors: In theory, Inductors and Capacitors do not have ego. Which in other words mean, they do not resist to the flow of I (information). The process of accepting I stops only when they have knowledge (or V) comparable to the source. Such characteristics, helps them in building great amount of energy inside them. Though both can store a lot of energy in their life time, they can never aid the society by converting it into any other useful form. What use is electrical energy, when you cannot use it to help the society? There is a use. When a fully charged capacitor is connected across a load, it discharges the energy it has onto that load. This, in other words means that it starts imparting the knowledge it gained back to the society! This remains the only advantage of such components.Example: Most professors who keep educating a lot of students in their life, but do not use this knowledge in their research, fall into this category.
(ii) Diode: Interesting component. A diode could be a highly egoistic or least egoistic component depending on its bias. In theory, while being forward biased it offers no resistance, hence accepts all the information. But, when reverse biased, it blocks the flow of I completely, unless the voltage of the knowledge source is too high to break its ego! Such egoistic diodes are of no or very less use to the society. Even while being forward biased, since they have no resistance, they act like a connecting wire which cannot store any energy in it. In real life they are useless, unless you want to block all the information coming towards you!Example: People who think they know everything or at least think it is bad to accept that they do not know or understand things around them fit into this category
(iii) Resistor: Resistors are one of the most widely used components in any electrical circuit. They have just enough ego to block all the unwanted information and allow the wanted ones alone. Though a resistor cannot store energy like a capacitor or an inductor, it can always use the I(information). Any application where energy conversion is required a resistor is used. The light bulb we use or the water heaters that we use are all using resistors ability to convert the information into useful energy.Example: People who has good listening ears and also a sound mind which can think and use the information that they have gained fit into this category.
So what are you? A diode, a Resistor or a Capacitor?
Blah! Blah! Blah!
"Imagine looking into a mirror and seeing two different reflections. It could be simple, in one reflection your hair is short and the other it's longer. Or in one, you've got a floral print top on, and in another, solid blue. You must be dreaming, right? This kind of thing doesn't happen in waking life. But it is happening, and it's impossible to get a sense of who you are. What do you do? How do you know which image in the mirror is really you? Perhaps step away and see how you feel. Sense inside yourself, and see if there are two realities there too
i wonder ..............................................................................................................
neways when your creative flow feels like its kinda stopped and all you want to do is write, but you have nothing to say- what do u do? What's ur next step? Stop drinking? Start drinking? Listen to the silence and not the music? Watch your frns, their simple actions generating so much joy?!
I have been banging my head against a wall since i pretty much hopped on the blogger lolzzzz and i have no idea what's wrong w/ me...I am also sick of reading ppl's blog who talk about what they did for the day and how they feel for the day.. It's so BORING.. *yawns*That makes me more sick, i need spices and chillis to wake me up, think that will be a better choice..For goddness sake, although my blog is not so good, but ppl who write abt these boring stuffs pls buy a pen and a diary book instead k.. :P
i wonder ..............................................................................................................
neways when your creative flow feels like its kinda stopped and all you want to do is write, but you have nothing to say- what do u do? What's ur next step? Stop drinking? Start drinking? Listen to the silence and not the music? Watch your frns, their simple actions generating so much joy?!
I have been banging my head against a wall since i pretty much hopped on the blogger lolzzzz and i have no idea what's wrong w/ me...I am also sick of reading ppl's blog who talk about what they did for the day and how they feel for the day.. It's so BORING.. *yawns*That makes me more sick, i need spices and chillis to wake me up, think that will be a better choice..For goddness sake, although my blog is not so good, but ppl who write abt these boring stuffs pls buy a pen and a diary book instead k.. :P
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
happy bday mum!!!!!!!!!!!!
There are plenty of people that I admire for their personal, professional, and spiritual lives but I think my mom is the only person who really qualifies as my true hero. She is an amazing woman who has always battled the odds of life wonderfully and is today a strong, confident, vibrant woman of faith and perseverance. She is actively pursuing her dreams for herself. Her prayers covered me for many years when I was too lazy to pray for myself . she is always a ready listening ear and yeah not to forget she continues to bear all my silly pranks :P .she's the one whom i luk upto in all my distressed moments to my happiest moments,a real treasure of my lyf !
luv u mom !!!!!!!
luv u mom !!!!!!!
Saturday, November 25, 2006
life is all about balance :)
I am an all-or-nothing personality, there seems to be so little balance in my way of being that sometimes I need to consciously rethink my actions. Often, my energy and thoughts are so focused on one thing that I feel burnt out or overwhelmed.I have come to realize that the way to inner peace is balance. The best way to get something done is to just stop working on it for a while... just like a day full of hard work is nourished by a night of deep sleep. Balance allows a person to release those frustrations of every day living. Nature is a perfect example of this. Day flows into night in a never-ending cycle. Summer transitions into fall, which slowly prepares for the winter. Emotions work in similar ways. Happiness and sadness, effort and relaxation, excitement and quiet, work and play... all of these emotions allow our lives to be full, complete and in balance
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